Boy Drama

Seriously? Am I the only one that's got it? Please tell me I'm not.

Why are they so hard to read? I don't know if I'm just out of practice or what, but it's driving me crazy. 

Tell me this, how does one play hard to get while putting themselves out there so that the other person knows they're interested? I just don't understand. 

And you want to know the worst part about all of this boy drama? Half the time, the boy doesn't even know there is drama because his mind is on fifty other things while yours (mine) is stuck on him.

ALL THE TIME

Les Miserables

I'm sure most of you have seen the preview, but I literally get the chills every time I see this. And by the end I can't even keep the tears from rolling down my face. 

Absolutely breathtaking. 

I cannot wait. 

Beautiful Heart

"I know, now, without a doubt that the true source of happiness, self-worth, and authentic beauty doesn't come from the outside. Women are constantly being persuaded to want something unachievable, to look younger or thinner and above all to fit in because being different is too painful and embarrassing. I have accepted myself in a world that does not accept me, because I have learned-and more than any of the lessons of my accident, this is the one i wish i could teach everybody- that

our hearts matter most. 

Your heart matters most, so be gentler and more patient with yourself, and their hearts matter most, too, so be kinder and more compassionate to others. It's a beautiful heart, not a perfect body, that leads to a beautiful life." 

-Stephanie Nielson, Heaven is Here

YOU GUYS

Guess what?? 

This boy entered the MTC one year ago TODAY!

 

I can't even believe how fast the time has gone by. I'm so thankful for Sam and his amazing example to me. I have learned so much from him and he continually influences my life for the better. So much has changed in the past year, and I know a whole lot more will change in this next one. But no matter what happens, I will forever be thankful for the blessings he has brought into my life.

Sam is doing great out on his mission (as far as I know). He and I don't write very often at all. I have actually only received 8 letters from him in this first year. We both just take our time to write each other and we understand that we each have our own things going on. We also just keep things very casual. Sometimes it's the hardest thing for me to not know what his feelings for me are or to express mine to him, but I know that supporting him on his mission is far more important than that. In the long run, I will be happier knowing that I didn't hold him back from reaching his potential in any way. Sam is SO happy out there and I know he is giving The Lord everything he can. I am so proud of his sacrifice and look up to him in so many ways. 

He's pretty amazing.

My mind's wanderings

I know I'm not the only one, but almost everything I experienced while growing up, my friends did, too. We all experienced the same changes at the same time. Like starting high school, learning to drive, dating, and graduating high school. We were all pretty much on the same page. We helped and supported each other through these stages in our lives and longingly awaited for some of them to arrive.

But now all of that has changed. After we graduated, we all took our own paths. We had to learn independence and make decisions based on what was best for ourselves. We grow and experience life in different ways now. Some of us have taken paths that were very predictable, and some of us have learned to deal with the unexpected turns that our particular paths have sent us on.

This is probably my favorite part of growing up. I feel like my friends and I have helped mold each other into the people that we wanted to become, and prepared each other for what the future brings. Now more than ever, I feel like we are all on different levels and I love it. It's amazing how what is right for me at this time, is completely wrong for someone else. We are all on our own time tables now and only our Father in Heaven knows what lies ahead for us and what we need at each time in our lives.

Some of us are married...

And some of us are dating some seriously cute boys...

And some of us are serving missions...

While some of us are single and having fun...

Some of us will be getting married soon, some of us will be going back to school, some of us will be on missions, and some of us will be working. It's crazy that life is taking each of us in our own direction, but I know that Heavenly Father is leading us to where we need to be. Looking back on my life one year ago, I realize that I have grown so much.

This time last year I was a complete mess. Sam and I had just decided that we needed to break things off so he could prepare for his mission. It was the most difficult thing and also the best thing for me to go through. I would definitely not be the person that I am right now, if it weren't for that. It taught me a lot about trusting in the Lord and being confident and independent.

I find myself getting stressed out and maybe even a little bummed out at times when I think about where my life is headed. Especially when I look at others and feel like they are doing much better things than I am. But my purpose in this life is different from all of my friends. Everything I experience is to prepare me for what I am to become. In this life as well as the next. I know that I still have a lot of growing up to do, but I know that I am where I need to be at this time and that my Father in Heaven loves me and will be there for me to help me reach my greatest potential.

What more can I ask for?

“Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.”  -Dr. Suess

Obsession

So I think this blog has turned into some sort of confessional or something.

But guys, I am in love with Zac Efron. I saw The Lucky One on Friday and boy was it something. 

I was experiencing shortness of breath probably 80% of the time. He has got to be one of the biggest babes in the world. The movie was alright but I honestly was in a daze the entire time. 

He is just unreal. It's been 4 days and I still can't get him out of my head.

P.S. remember those guilty pleasures I told you about? Yeah that song is definitely on the list. 

Guilty Pleasure

I should be embarrassed by the fact that I love to jam out to songs like this.

Judge me if you want.

Whatever, I love myself and I hate myself.